For those of you who don't know, I have a paralegal degree. When I graduated, because of the recession, most law firms were on a hiring freeze. So I have been patiently waiting to utilize the degree I will be paying for until my kids go to college.

I have been anxiously awaiting a phone call for 5 days. It was worse than waiting for Dave to call after our first date. I had the worst anxiety!!! They called Friday at 4:42 PM, and I missed the stinkin call!!! I was so upset with myself. So this morning I called back. They wanted to offer me the job. Great, right? A total confidence booster! Unfortunately, we were not on the same page with some of the other details (compensation), and I wasn't able to accept. Too bad. It stinks to go through that whole process, and it not work out. It's such a great firm, and I would have kicked myself in the butt had I not given it my all. I would have really liked to work there.

But here's the upside to it all. Since I started this process, Ady started school and we're just now in a routine. I absolutely LOVE my time at home with the boys. Two babies at home is SO SO SO much easier than three!!! I get one-on-one time with each of them every single day, and time to MYSELF (so foreign to me!). Cade is learning to play independently and has started to sometimes include Hunt in his playtime. Turning down this job also means I get to keep taking part in my favorite part of the day: taking and picking up Ady from school. I just can't tell you how much I love to do that! It sounds small, but it is such a HUGE deal to me! I would also miss my best friend time, breakfast with my girlfriends, and lunch dates with Dave.

I know, a lot of you are thinking, why in the world would you give all that up? Sounds a little crazy when you put it like that, BUT, I am driven. I never imagined myself in this life, and the old me still thinks I can have my cake and eat it too. I always think I can do and have it all... I think this is God's way of putting me in my place, and teaching me a lesson in simplicity and contentment. There will always be time to work. I am right where I need to be.